It’s been a while since I’ve written a proper blog post on here, but I woke up this morning feeling like I needed to get something off my chest (heh) and speak to you guys about something that we all have to deal with – embarrassment.
Yes, I was incredibly embarrassed of my pigeon chest growing up, and would do everything I could to avoid people from being near it let alone seeing it. But this wasn’t just extended to people I didn’t know, it extended to people that were very close to me – friends and family.
How could my family not realize that I was suffering? To be honest, I was very good at hiding it. I always insisted on wearing swimming tops on holiday ‘to stop me getting sunburn’ and I would never hug people too closely. They probably thought I was a really weird kid (I was to be honest).
But was this the right thing for me to do? Because I didn’t want to tell any of my friends or family about my pigeon chest, I had to deal with all of the struggles on my own – the mental struggle, the constant self loathing and the battle to hide it at all costs. I’d spend all day hiding my pigeon chest at school and college, then I’d come home and instead of relaxing I’d have to be thinking about keeping my chest hidden again. That was a lot of stress for a teenager to go through on their own.
Most of my family now know about my chest, and honestly….most of them are really upset that I’d never told them previously. They were actually pretty offended that I didn’t think they’d want to support me with my condition.
So what is the point of this post? Well, you might feel embarrassed about your pigeon chest, and the thought of telling your friends and family about it might fill you with dread. But trust me, they want to help you. Start by telling your parents, and let them know how it affects you. Make sure that they take it seriously and that you let them know the full extent of how it affects you.
You might be tempted to tell your friends about it, and this is absolutely ok if you feel that you can trust them not to tease you behind your back.
Nobody should suffer alone, and failing to tell people can lead to depression and other mental issues. Don’t make the same mistake as I did and tell your loved ones about your chest!
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